Well it's been while.
I was very excited indeed to see American Gangster. As it turns out I was unable to see any movies, work or have my normal life. I woke up the morning after my last post with horrible pain in my leg, so bad i couldn't walk while my toes on the right side (pinky to middle toe) were numb. This went on about 3 days, to the point i couldn't make it anywhere, and was confined to the couch laying. I was hopping it would sort itself out and I was very worked about weather or not I was looking at a circulation problem. It didn't feel like a muscle at all. I had to hold onto my mother just to make it into the bathroom. I attempted work (Nov 6th), left half way in the day and did not return the whole week. I have not cried over pain since I was a child, but this truly took me to my proverbial knees.
I've never had back problems, but that is what this turned out to be.
Seeing a doctor I had never seen (it's been 9 years since I went to a doctor) he informed me, after listening to my problems that he was almost 100% sure I had burst the side of a disc in my back (the cushions between the vertebrate) and had swollen inside, aggravating my syatic nerve. Which explains the numbness, sensitivity to touch, and IMPOSSIBLE ability to comfort. He put me on Ibuprofen to lower the swelling and comfort my pain, and also put me on steroids to bring the swelling down. He told me he could write me up for an MRI to make sure, but the cost was $700 to $2,000 and he knows thats not in my budget, plus he was sure what it was. So he tells me to take the pills, and then showed me a few small exercised I'll be doing, and that physiotherapy would be my next move. If that didn't work, we'd be looking at surgery. He himself has had 2 of these. One he had surgery with, one he did not.
Let me add here.. he also put me on 6vits a day and basically berated me for being a vegetarian. It was rude, and I dislike him greatly, but I'm too annoyed to start talking about it again after all this time. He also had smart-ass remarks like "you know the human body isn't maid for sitting right?" ..No shit. I'm in pain, STFU and help. ...argrrr. Apparently I'm not allowed to sit for more than ½hr at a time.
So, my mother got my meds (thank god it was on the $4 list, because i don't have insurance). Great, so it takes a few days, but before you know it, I'm great! I'm not 100% pain free, but it was a great improvement, and I was able to go to work for on November 12th. That night I decided to slowly get on the floor, and try one of the movements. Which is lay flat, and pull each knee up, one at a time. Yay.
Then I tried to get up. Crawled onto the couch with 100% day-one pain. Putting myself back at square one, with no steroids anymore, and the Ibuprofen NOT working. So I called the doctor, explained, they didn't call back, and didn't call back. Finally I get a perception called in, for vicodin. Yay. But.. tell me to stop taking Ibuprofen (the only thing I have for anti-inflammatory). So..this is where we veer off the doctor. I *know* the reason it hurts is because I'm swollen, i know what's what going on. But I do not have another $76.00 for him to tell me I'm right and prescribe anti-inflammatory.
My mother does some research and find the anti-inflammatory her husband has (and using using) will work. So we begin our own schedule. Using different pain pills, vicodin, ibuprofen, acetaminophen, and these new anti-inflammatory (not all at once, different combinations). I am happy to say on the 22nd I was able to go to the movies, and have been to work since the 19th. Right now I am almost off all pain pills.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow which i may cancel but we'll see. This was a horrible, horrible experience. I have once more dropped a bunch of weight, which is great, because this is the beginning of a new lifestyle for me.
Vitamins, paying closer attention to my diet (he said cheese or eggs every day), and finding a new routine to take care of myself. I don't want this to become chronic. There is nothing more humiliating than to be young, and unable to even make it to the bathroom without help. So much of it (like having a chair just to shower) reminded me of taking care of grandma during the last weeks of her cancer. The pain of being unable to do for yourself hurts to the very core. ;\ Might I add Daddy was very non-understanding about the whole thing. Jackass.
And I still have to write those movie reviews... adding Beowulf in 3D to the list. ;p
Oh, and since I've been back to work, I've made it to lvl 47 with my dear Sabri. I may have to stand up ever ½hr, but i still get to play all day at work. ;] New progression pix coming.
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disappointed.
hungry.
depressed.
sore.
okay.
frustrated.
sad.
drained.
amused.
content.